Wanna know 5 secrets that not even I have have admitted to myself?

1. I love searching for wedding stuff on the internet...Even though I'm not getting married any time soon. I'm seventeen and completely single. But I want my dress to be from the Disney bridal dresses collections, surprised? And a classic cake with a touch of pink.

2. I wish I knew if there was something wrong with him and if there was, I wish I could fix it. He has changed in a weird way. Yes, he's a celebrity, and yes, its his bussiness. But this is supposed to be a secret. Secrets are things that you don't wanna tell in public because they do not match with logic or happiness.

3. I want to go to back to school so bad!

4. I don't like Taylor Lautner anymore because his face reminds me of one of my cousins, ew!

5.If we make a competition on who has the cutest boy living next door, I win. :)

But shhh, don't anyone

p.s. bonus secret! I don't want a prince charming. I find perfect guys sooooo boring.

Senior Year

So many questions I can't wait to find the answer to...

Who will I hang out with?

Will they make fun of my disney princesses notebooks? (I don't care if they do)

Will I get in trouble?

Will I sing and dance randomly just like when Ichly was there?

Will I get my chances to sing, just like last year?

Will the other girls try to bring me down since my best buddy (their target) is gone?

Will I look pretty on my year picture?

Will people be glad to see me again?

Will we look good in our Senior shirts?

Will DREV be as popular and successful as last year?

Will choir be as fun as last year?

Did the guys mature a little bit more?

Will we have the wedding?

Will I maintain my sanity?

Will I be miserable?

Will I be happy?

Freedom

If there is something about my life that I really enjoy is the freedom.

Freedom is...

-Serving, loving, living for Christ. You trust all your problems to Him. You obey Him, he does the rest. Obeying may not sound like freedom, but praising the Lord feels better than running in a sundress over a field of flowers.

-Getting to travel often.

-Watching Camp Rock with your two little neighbors (one is 4, the other 10), singing and dancing every song without having a care who is watching.

-Singing silly songs from VeggieTales with one of the most special girls in the world (she's 6) and not caring who would call you a ridiculously childish.

-Spending the summer away from people you have to be away from for your own good.

-Wearing dresses.

-Dance the hoedown throwdown in front of some guys and, now matter how much they make fun of you, knowing that they still want you as a friend.

-Spending time with the youngest best friend you've ever had (she's 7, sister of the girl that sang the silly songs with me).

wait...wow, I really like being around kids. Is that bad? It's just that I feel like there's no pressure. They don't mind, they like it when your being yourself. When they start growing up into their pre-teen years they think that they are "big". It is not your likes or dislikes what determine if you're immature or not, it's how you handle your problems and resposibilities. I don't have to drink, do drugs, or have sex to have a good time. I spend my time with my friends, my parents and with little kids and I have the time of my life. Now THAT is true freedom.

Random Summer Thoughts

-I learned how to make pizza, dough and everything. It's fun. I coudn't help but sing "Pizza Girl" while making it.
-I don't care if it looks desperate, it's nice to finally have a boy in my mind for a while. But it's just a tiny little crush for fun, for now.
-I miss my brother. He's on a looooong trip.
-Made new friends. My neighbors. They're kids. But they are entertaining.
-Made plans to go to Florida with the two most amazing little girls and their parents (who are also awesome). One is 7, the other 6. I'm not sure, but I bet the most magical place on Earth would be even more magical with those two princesses. I'll be gone for Christmas and New Year's.
- I've changed somehow. I don't think about him at all. BIG change.

Have a nice summer :D